I do not belong here. Feeling incomplete, almost aimless. I stare out into the distance and i see a blurred reflection of me staring back. A blank stare. I shiver at the sight, i break down and cry. Thats how lost i am, not even knowing myself from the...

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Never been so numb before. Linkin Park has a song about it. Depeche Mode has "A pain that I'm used to" - the perfect concoction of what reflects my thoughts right now. Some may never be able to relate. Some will try. The depths of my...

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How does one cope? With this pain, that surges through your veins, in the blood that gets pumped from this damaged heart. How to cope? Screaming but with no sound. The insanity, the darkness, the intensity of all those murdered memories of past 12 years..

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Sometimes You need silence to nourish the heart to speak to your mind When both seem apart. Silence speaks the language of the spirit, Silence, knows your heart, the rhythm of life, all that there is; all that you are; all that you do Enjoy silence. Let..

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This morning I dreaded the thought of waking to face what will be; I dreaded the pain that wakes with me, I called upon God for guidance through barricades of strain and pathways of pain. I know, I know God needs me here, I know now, I need love. He will.

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